Thursday, February 10, 2011


Where to begin...
I just failed my medication quiz. It was overly hard, the teacher pulled some questions out of her ass, obviously she is doing something wrong because the entire class failed. I am so mad at myself, but I studied hard. I knew the drugs. This is the first time I have ever failed. I use the term "fail" loosely because I made a 65%, but anything under a 75% is failing in nursing. Yay me, I failed my first assignment in my student nursing career. I feel like such a tard. I am a good student, that makes good grades. I don't aim for perfection but geez a 65% is horrible.

The sad part is I thought I was doing good. I thought I had the majority of the questions right. Some were tricky with 2 or 3 possible answers. I had enough time to answer them all, I wasn't rushed but still I failed.
I am not going to let this get me down, but this makes me that much more scared about the Renal exam. I am more than likely not going to my husbands deployment ceremony. Bad wife, I know. I have other priorities, school is important. I have to get my RN. I know my husband will understand, in fact, he is telling me NOT to go. So please don't be negative. He is a soldier, but I am not letting the term "military wife" be the one and only thing that defines me. I can't always let the military win, I am dying to have the title RN one day soon.{Wow,  this is a post for another day}.

I want to cry, but honestly I don't even know how to anymore. The past two days have been rough with the deployment coming up so closely. I am so numb to everything right now.
I hope y'all have had a wonderful week, and an even better weekend that is coming up so quickly! Sorry this post is so sad. Hopefully I have happier ones to come!

I feel like I may go barf now.


  1. Oh MAN, that reminds me of a basic psychology class I took where the teacher would tell us what to study...I'd literally spend all weekend for hours straight studying...then comes Monday and the test would have questions that weren't relevant to the study guide. Heck, this teacher even flunked my extra credit report!

    Since the class seems to be having trouble, maybe put together a study group with a couple students?

  2. For some reason, some instructors try to make nursing school as hard as getting a PhD in electrical engineering so they do stupid shit like that.

    You should have kept the not letting the military define you in normal letters! That's a normal feeling. Being a career woman with a career man is pretty baller!

  3. oh man, i'm sorry about your test. don't feel down. things happen. apparently if the majority of the students did bad there's gotta be something wrong with her testing, i hate teachers that try to trick you. lame. i've got 3 tests next week. Pharm, health assessment, and another calc test where i have to get 95% or higher. By the way, in nursing so far have you had to write any big papers?

  4. I'm so sorry. I'm sure you're discouraged but you will power through it and rise above it! You can do it!

  5. umm if it makes you feel better I failed stats twice before I passed :p

  6. So sorry things didn't go as well as you hoped. Keep your chin up!
    Also, you definitely don't need to justify or feel bad about the military wife thing - you have to do what's best for you!


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