Sunday, January 30, 2011

Attention:Military Moms

My friend introduced me to a business on Facebook. This lady has some of the cutest stuff that is military related. She has children's clothing, headbands, and purses. I would love to have a baby that I could dress up in some of the cute stuff that she has. Since so many of you followers are military, I thought I would share with you. I have never personally ordered from her and she did not put me up to this, I am not getting paid either. I am only doing it because I know that many of you are military and have children and children on the way! If I had children to clothe I would so be buying some of these items! 

Kaylee's Closet can be found on Facebook here. She is PCSing soon and will only be taking orders till mid February. 

Cute little model 


I just love this dress!

I love this too!

Little adorable booties

Just precious!

These photos are not mine and belong to Kaylee's Closet.

MilSpouse Vent

This is a serious vent of my experience with our new unit. It is all over the place and probably doesn't make much sense if you aren't familiar with some military.

My amazing husband has been threatened twice today to be demoted! My husband has been in the Army National Guard for SIX stinking years and has never been in trouble! My husband was transferred a few months back because he agreed to extend his contract long enough to deploy. This new unit has been nothing but a bad experience for both of us. This unit has officially changed our minds on ever going active. No way Jose', after this deployment he will be strictly a civilian, no more military for us.

I have been thinking a lot today, I honestly think the Ok National Guard is demoting everyone to be more cost efficient during the deployment. One of my husbands battles had a flat tire or something and was like 5 minutes late and was demoted! I mean that is unnecessary. Life happens, flat tires happen, wrecks happen, children having to use the bathroom at the most inconvenient time happens.

Life just flat out happens, and people need to be aware of that.

This unit has been absolutely ridiculous for the past few months. My husband was threatened twice today as stated above, the first time was over not having his long sleeve PT shirt, the second time was over not having his raffle tickets brought back. After being threatened the first time he called and was really mad because they were never told to wear long sleeves and it was no where stated in their monthly drill letter. The second threat was over him not returning raffle tickets today, which they did not state a specific date for them to be returned. He called back again, saying I had to make the hour drive{one way} to bring them to him cause they were in my car! What? Can't I mail them? It is a few stupid pieces of paper! I was furious at this point, I get my butt in my car and head out for my hour drive, because they wouldn't allow me to mail them! I returned them to him and am now hoping we have 0 problems out of this unit again.

This was the biggest mistake we have ever made, and that may sound bad but this unit is so unorganized and so chaotic.My husband wants nothing more than to serve this country that we love so much but this unit has made it such a horrible experience that we want to get out as quick as we can and NEVER look back. I know that not all units are like this, we had an awesome unit before he was transferred. I wish he could go back in time and tell them he wouldn't extend. Asking him to not extend would be like asking him to jump off a bridge. He loves this country and he loves having the chance to serve for us. He is a selfless man just like {mostly} every other military member. They don't do it for the money, obviously but it is nice to receive the pay you deserve.

Walking around on egg shells is no fun, and being so scared of demotion that you carry EVERY single piece of gear in your truck, and you military wives can agree with me I am sure, there is A S**T TON of military gear. I can almost bet you hate it as much as I do, it takes up nearly a whole entire room of ours.

Please, tell me that y'all have bad days like this. I don't want to be the only one and I don't want y'all to think I am horrible for saying some of the things I have said. I hope some of y'all can at empathize with me if you don't fully understand where I am coming from.

Friday, January 28, 2011

Blah Day

Today is a blah day! I am being an emotional woman! Sometimes I wish I was a man so I wouldn't "feel" as much.

I made a 90% on my IV Calc. test, I am happy about it but I don't know what I did wrong! I am going to ask to see my test tomorrow.

We found out today that hubby leaves pretty soon for a week in the field training I guess, I am so glad that the National Guard is so considerate and gives us enough time to get financial stuff straightened out before he has to take off work! We never get paid on the correct day so him taking off work always puts us in a bind . I know it is my husbands duty to report when called but I wish they would give us a little more notice on some stuff, I mean heck we knew about the deployment for OVER seven months, what is so hard about notifying earlier when he is going to have to take off work for a week. I can already tell this deployment is going to be so much fun this year, and if OK doesn't get their pay right I am going to scream. Military pay is supposed to be on the 1st and the 15th. We usually get ours whenever they feel like it.

That is all of my rant for the day,aren't you so glad?

I want to thank all my readers! Y'alls comments help me get through most of my days! I appreciate y'all so much!

Thursday, January 27, 2011

XBOX Humor

Just a little humor that hubby and I thought was funny! :) I so understood this the other day! 


Woke up this morning thinking today was the IV calculation exam. I was freaking out on the verge of having a breakdown cause I haven't looked over that stuff since last week. I called my friend asking what time we were taking it and getting all the details, well my friend saved my life and reminded me the test is tomorrow! So there is some hope, I can study and refresh tonight, then tomorrow I can make an A!

Not a whole lot has been going on except for school. I go to school, come home, then study. My life is boring and I am beginning to think I need to find time for some friends.

I start my Medical-Surgical clinicals next week, I am excited because we won't be in class everyday anymore! Whoo! I am also bummed because I hate Med-Surg with a firey passion. I just don't care for it and it's not my cup of tea, hopefully this semester is a lot better on the Med-Surg floor.

I guess it is back to studying for me, I need to read some in my awesome Med-Surg book, then go over the calcs. I also have laundry and dishes on top of all of that!

Whew, there are just not enough hours in the day!

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Big D and OPSEC

Deployment is right around the corner, lets just say there are just a few pages left in my planner till the big day comes. I am so not looking forward till it, but I must say that he will be training for awhile before he actually leaves the states. I hope I didn't break OPSEC here. Anyways, we are accomplishing our pre-deployment goals slowly but surely. Today we bought a new door knob for our front door, our old one was a piece. We also got the Power of Attorney paperwork notarized, and we discussed what type of life saving measurements he wants "if" something is to happen to him. I feel like we are accomplishing things. We are able to talk about the important stuff that bothers so many, I would rather talk about stuff and have it out in the open before he goes. We know what we might be facing.
I have also decided today that I really really want to move. My husband being the smart $$$ saver that he is won't allow me to though since his mom owns this house and we live here rent free,my husband always jokes and says if you live with your parents long enough they will eventually move out!  So now that I am not moving I am going to have to buy a dog kennel to keep my dogs in while I am away during school and clinicals, cause God knows how bad 3 dogs would destroy a house in 12 hours!
Not my house, but this is what it would look like after my dogs got a hold of it for twelve hours!

Oh I found some good OPSEC poster dilly-whoopers! I liked them and I will pass them on to you!
Kind of rude,but I find the profanity funny.

My hubby loves Chuck Norris jokes!

Monday, January 24, 2011

Monster to Deployed Soldiers

Anyone that is for the military and has a Facebook account please go hereAdd Joshua Bourdon and like his post about Monster Energy Drinks. He asked them to help get cases to Afghanistan for his brother and fellow soldiers. If he gets 1000 likes they will supply them with drinks for a year. They are at 888 as of right now! I am all for free stuff like this to the military and it sounds very real so what can it hurt? I say give it a try and lets see if any of our husbands get some Monster! I doubt Monster is very good to drink ALL the time, but what hurts to have one or two drinks occasionally. They need something from home, and what manly man doesn't like Monster? If you do it thanks in advance!

{EDIT} I thought I would add a picture for you, just in case you didn't know what Monster was.

Proud Military Wives

My friend Haley took this picture, I just find it so cute and inspirational! She is the one I always talk about in every other post of mine. I miss this girl like crazy. She is literally my best friend, even though we are states away I still love her and she knows it! 

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Serious Vent

I understand that my husband is about to be deployed, blah blah blah. I have been hearing it for 7 months now.
I understand that he wants to have fun before he leaves and do the things he likes, but playing Modern Warfare 2 for several hours a day is just plain rude in my opinion. He is like a vegetable and honestly it is like he has already left, I feel neglected. I know that we are both very emotionally unstable right now. All I ask of him is that he spends a little time with me when I am home! During the week I RARELY ever see him, by the time I get home he is already at work. He has been playing the stupid xbox since we got home from the yellow ribbon program earlier this afternoon.

I literally just asked him if he wanted to hang out with me, he didn't say a damn thing, he looked at me with this stupid deer in headlights look then went and joined another game. I can't handle this anymore. I am going to explode,and it is not going to be good. I am going to smash the xbox with a hammer, I can just feel it.

Ahh, how good it feels to vent away from the husband. I am sure if he has internet while deployed he might end up reading this one day. {Babe,if you ever read this, I am sorry that I felt like this, I spared your feelings and blurted mine out to the entire world! It was better than getting into a stupid argument over a stupid gaming system. I love you}

The yellow ribbon program was amazing, and we learned some pretty awesome tips on how to save some money while deployed. I am pretty excited and I think we can actually save as much as we want, plus some! We are saving for a down payment on a house, that is the only reason my hubby volunteered to go again.

Friday, January 21, 2011

Support Our Troops

We have the Yellow Ribbon Ceremony tomorrow and Sunday, I am hoping that we get some good briefings over the weekend, I have never been to a Yellow Ribbon Ceremony Pre-Deployment, the last time I went was after the hubby came home from Iraq. We are getting out of the house for a night so I am pretty excited about that, new scenery and new friends!

I have to get back to packing. We leave out very early in the morning!

Thursday, January 20, 2011



I am pretty excited, I wasn't to worried about it but still, I had to have at least a 90% and I made a 100%! Today was a pretty good day, we got our clinical schedule, I am fairly happy with mine. I have 6 Medical-Surgical days, 1 OR day, 1 Dialysis day, 1 Oncology day, 2 days at a head start to do the Denver Developmental thing, 1 Hospice day, and 1 Home Health day. This semester we are just doing everything it seems like and I don't feel like we are getting enough days in. I do know that our Medical-Surgical days are LONG days, we go from 0630-1630. This means I will have to wake up by 0430 and I won't be home till around 1800. Blah. Those days are going to be tiring.

Today I got out of school a little before three, and my husband works the evening shift at his job so as I was coming in to town he was leaving town. We passed each other and waved, I will be in bed before he gets home. It has been like this the entire week. I haven't been able to spend anytime with him, besides me waking him up early in the morning while I am getting ready so we can at least drink a cup of coffee together. I guess my schedule is forcing me to get used to him going away. I am okay with it now, but I really wish I had more time to spend with him while he is home. 

This weekend we are heading to the city for the Yellow Ribbon Ceremony, so we will have some alone time this weekend. I plan on going and watching a movie together and out to eat at a steak house:) Yum yum, I bet the hubby will love that! 

I am so sorry but I have to go, I have 3 chapters that I have to read out of my Med-Surge book

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Wednesday Night Study Group

My study group on a regular basis,
 the pug thinks he has to help me with everything, 
and the pit bull just has to lay all over everything! 
Isn't this expression just to cute to resist?

Panting Pug and sleepy Pit.

Snuggled on Mommas' blanket!

Sorry about the bad image, this was taken on my iphone and the lighting was bad. 

School,Emotions,Weight Loss

Tomorrow is the first dosage exam of the semester. It is 10 questions and we can only miss one! I got this but I am worried for some people. We have 2 retakes I believe so that will give them time to fix it. I am hoping everyone passes and no one even has to take the retake. We have already lost 3 people since August!


One of my teachers came up to me today and asked when my husband left out. I told her it was coming up pretty quickly. She told me if I needed any time off that the program would understand. I felt so relieved that I know they support me. I didn't know how it was going to be. I don't want time off necessarily but I would like to have the day off to send him away and watch him load the buses. I don't know why but I feel like it will help me cope. I also might need the day after he leaves off. I might just be an emotional wreck that day. I have so many emotions running through my head right now, I feel like just crying and screaming but I am pretty numb to it all. We have known since JULY that he was going. Yes, we were lucky and knew 7 months prior. I have gotten used to the idea of being alone, but I know it will probably hit me hard when he leaves. I have only broken down once or twice since we found out. I keep telling myself over and over that he is getting deployed hoping that saying it to myself will make me get a grip on the reality that is coming very soon. I doubt any of it helps but I am trying!

On to something else,

About my diet. I haven't exactly been following it like I should. I have eaten "bad stuff" for the last two days. I haven't worked out cause I have been so exhausted from school work. I don't know how this is going to go now that school has started back up. I plan on working out at least 3-5 times a week but I seriously never have time to work out. I really want to lose this weight, everyone told me it is going to be super hard doing it while in school, and now I am beginning to believe them. I can do it but I doubt I will lose the weight as fast as I want. I am going to have to start packing my lunch I think. Eating out 3-5 times a week is going to kill my belly and my wallet.

Anyways if you have made it through this entire post I applaud you! It was super long but I never have the chance to write anymore. So I thought I would update you about everything while I had the chance! I have to go study for that dosage exam now! Good night everyone!

Monday, January 17, 2011

MilSpouse Inspiration

♥♥Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough♥♥

I found this on a friends FB earlier and I loved it so much I reposted as my status and am now posting it for y'all to read! It is now time for me to get my lazy butt up and make myself workout. I cheated on my diet today{Kids Chicken Strip Meal,with Fries, and a small Vanilla Shake}, so yes...I have got to work out. NOW! 

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Days 8,9,10

So I have gotten really distracted and have not kept up with this daily like I should. School has officially gotten the best of me, speaking of school, my Davis Drug guide is waiting patiently for me to open it and learn some drugs! I am so ecstatic about that, I really don't like trying to remember the drugs, plus remembering that many comes with time. I can't possibly remember every little detail about one drug {hello, isn't that why there is a drug guide at every nurses station?} Wow, I got side tracked.
Back to the 30 day challenge thingy, that has become a pain in my butt somewhat.
Day 8-My favorite internet friend- This question is really hard for me, I even went through my FB friends. I know every single one of them some way, there are a few I haven't met though. Honestly, I love all my internet friends. Anyone who happened to stumble upon my blog and follow me. Y'all mean everything to me. I have a huge support team behind me floating around in cyber space;) 
Day 9-Someone you wish you could meet-I wish I could meet Reyna Lay over at Glamour Glory, click here to go to her fantabulous  blog! She has been a huge inspiration for me, because of her I have lost ten pounds and  I have received the motivation I need to workout and begin to turn my life around to be healthier. Go check out her page, she is such an awesome person!

Day 10-Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to- This would be my friend Hays that lives in WA. I have talked about her before. He husband went active when the recession hit OK very hard. There were no jobs to be found and he had a family to provide for. It was the best decision they could have made, and it turns out that he is thinking career Army now. They are going to do so much better in life now, getting out of OK to see the world is a huge dream of any Okie! If I could talk to Hay right now, I would tell her I loved her and I miss her like crazy. Can't wait to make a trip up there this summer, hopefully. {Keeping fingers crossed that I can somehow manage to find the time to take a week long trip there!} I would get emotional and cry, then she would laugh and tell me she loved me too. I miss you Hays. 
That is all for tonight, I am pooped tired and I like I mentioned above, I have a few drugs that I need to memorize before Tuesday. 
Goodnight y'all! {In a southern Okie voice}

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Guess What?{Edit}

Hey lovely ladies! I was curious today and I weighed myself, I am proud to say that I am officially under 170. I now weigh 169.4. I am SO HAPPY. I did it, now if I can get under 160!
I am going out, I have made a new friend and she is having a passion party tonight;)
I have pictures I will be posting later

{Edit}I can't find our adapter for our camera so no pictures today. This ticks me off cause they were cute pics, I was all dressed up for a change! Maybe I will find it tomorrow, maybe not. I am babysitting tomorrow- a 14 month old and a 7 year old. Pray for me please, I might just lose my sanity. 

Friday, January 14, 2011

Less Stress/IV Calculations

By less stress, I mean....LESS STRESS!
I went to school today and they handed us a 8 page worksheet on IV calculations and what not, we even learned the drop factor. I have successfully completed the paper and I am confident that I know what I am doing! It wasn't what I made it out to be at all! I am crazy for thinking IV Calc's. were going to be the death of me!

I do have one minor question though to any RN's/RN Students out there...feel free to answer cause I need your help to make sure I got it right!
The order is Kefzol 500 mg in 50 cc of D5W. Administer med over 20 min. What rate will you set the pump?
I did (50cc/20 min)(60min)=150 mL/hr

Please,Please tell me I am correct?! That is the only one I had to think twice about because since it is under one hour I had to multiply by 60.

I am so happy, I am out of school Monday so I have a 3 day weekend! Now if only I can spend it wisely. Today I spent about 4-6 hours on homework and studying alone. I am now ahead, but I still have more I could do! I really do feel accomplished though! My hubby is almost off work so I am going to wrap this thing up and spend some time with him! Have an awesome night blogging buddies:)

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Nursing School=HELL

First day back was well. Until we were handed a 300+ vocab list for this unit, they said have fun making flash cards! Just great, last semester we were given the definitions which was so nice and easy. Now we have to waste more time looking up words. On our dosage exams we have to make a 90% in order to pass and we have 1 retake. This means..I better start figuring IV calculations ASAP!
I am just very overwhelmed at the moment. There is so much to do in so little time! I probably won't be blogging very much anymore, but I will try to update at least weekly! Blogging has helped me relieve a lot of stress.

This is exactly how I feel right about now! 
I guess I am going to get to those vocabulary words so I can get some done! Talk to y'all later! I will miss y'all!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Day 6 & 7

Day 6- A stranger
I don't really understand this. Here goes anyways. When I first started college I worked at a gas station. One night there was an older smelly man that had horrible hygiene that came in and paid for his gas. He left his wallet on the counter and left. I didn't know who the man was or where he lived so I pulled his ID out of his wallet and started looking in the phone book for his number. I came across a number that I thought might be his and I called, there was no answer so I left a voice mail. I put the wallet in the counter drawer and left a note for the day shift ladies. The next day when I returned to work my boss handed me $40 and told me that it was from the man who left the wallet. I felt so guilty that I had judged him, he didn't know me at all and he just left $40 for me because I returned his wallet! I thought it was crazy, he impacted me very much and to this day I try to think before I judge and give people a chance.

Day 7- Your EX bf/gf/love/crush
Ha, this is funny cause my husband is actually my ex. We broke up on and off till we finally decided that we were supposed to be together. We hit a pretty rough patch in our relationship during his 07-08 deployment. When he got leave we met up and have been together ever since! We have been together since July 4th, 2008 without any breakups:) Now we are married and have no choice but to make it work! I love him so much and  we have both grown up to be pretty good people!

Monday, January 10, 2011

Weigh In

I started my diet/exercise plan a few days before New Year. I am not for sure what day I was actually weighed but I know my starting weight was 177. I weighed in today and I weigh 171! I have lost a total of 6 pounds and I could not be happier! I have been working out 5-6 times a week, doing some cardio workouts, small weights, and walking/jogging a mile when the weather permits. I am on cloud nine right now! Losing weight felt impossible! I have changed my diet  following some of  Reyna@Glamour Glory tips. Which you can read about here. She is awesome and she has motivated me so much! Reading her posts and seeing her before and after pictures have inspired me! She is an awesome person! Go check out her page and see what I am talking about! I would like to get down to my healthy weight which is around 135-145. I will be happy at 140. I have always fluctuated between those weights until I got on the nasty Depo-Provera shot {birthcontrol}, and I started school! I have about 31 more pounds to lose! I am hoping to be able to lose my weight by the time I start school back in August. I plan on maintaining my weight from there with regular exercise and healthier choices!
Gosh, I am still just so excited!

I have one question for you though...I am interested in taking the Whey Protein supplement they sell at Walmart but my husband told me not to because that is to get bulky. Is that true? What would you suggest?


I go back to school on Thursday and I hate to say it but I am dreading being back in the classroom. I have more to look forward to but we are starting RENAL as soon as we get back! I have heard sophomore nursing students say that test was the hardest one, and many of them failed it. This is why I dread going back. I have gotten so lazy over the break, the only thing I can force myself to do is workout. I hope school goes well but we have a new teacher this semester, so I am sure it is going to be a massive pain in the butt. Anyways, moving on. I am applying for a Nurse Tech, Externship at two different hospitals. If I get one, it means I am moving back in with my grandma and mom for 8 weeks. The thought of this makes me cringe, but at the same time I like the idea. I won't be so lonely over the summer. I cringe at the thought because more than a day or two together and we start fighting over stupid stuff. We are all loud and obnoxious women and when we all get together we practically scream when we are having a conversation. It will definitely make for an interesting summer. I have friends closer to there so that is a plus, but I will have to get internet there because my grandma and mom are still in the stone age and don't even own a computer! I don't understand how people still don't have computers. I wouldn't be able to function without one, much less do my school work. Everything is on the computer now days! Yikes!!

On to day 5 of the challenge.
Day 5-Your dream(s).

I was going over all of my dreams earlier, they are all grown-upy {don't laugh at my made up word!}, I wish I was a kid so I could give y'all something fun to read on this post. I have the normal dreams for an adult! Finish school, become an RN, go back and get my bachelors, then apply for Nurse Anethesist {CRNA} school. Possibly join the Air Force to go to CRNA school,buy a house after deployment, have kids {one day},live a long happy cancer free life! Well my dreams are far from exciting but I guess that is what happens when you have to grow up! 
What are some of your dreams?

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Are You There Vodka? It's Me, Chelsea

My husband and I went out and bought the Xbox Kinect last night. I have been begging for it for a little over two  weeks now because I want to start the biggest loser workout on it. We just got the Kinect last night and the Adventure game it came with. The game is freaking awesome! I love it, and it is such a good workout. Hubby and I stayed up till over 3 am playing on it! We had so much fun! We played some today, now he is on xbox live with a buddy of his. I thought that I had been neglecting my blog, so I better get to typing! I also bought a new book last night! It's called "Are You There Vodka? It's Me, Chelsea", it's written by Chelsea Handler, the one who does Chelsea lately! I just love her she is hilarious! I am hoping to read it before I go back to school on Thursday! Anyways, I have to catch up on my 30 day challenge thingy!

Day 3-My Parents
Oh geeze. Where to start? My mother is my rock, she is one of my best friends. She depends on me so much as I do her. She was a single mother practically all of our lives. I was about 3 when she FINALLY left my dadsperm donor. 
On to my sperm donor, he was my moms' highschool sweetheart, but he was also the town drunk. He beat my mom for 10+ years, although one good thing about him was he never hurt me, my brother, or my sister. He never paid child support voluntarily. He owes 63,000+ and still growing. He is in prison right now for child support but he hasn't been in long and he is already about to get out. Oh, he sent me a birthday card once. Ha! My birthday is in July, he sent the card in August. What a freaking great dad. NOT.
Now my step dad. I don't really care for him but at least he's here. Okay, I take that back. I'd rather him be gone and out of my life. He is a prick. He acts like he is about ten. I would so die of laughter if he ever seen this!
That is the parent side and this is my dysfunctional life!:)

Day 4-Your sibling {at least we are getting the family part over with in one day}.
I have an older sister, she has Autism. She is one of the smartest handicap people I have ever known! She is slick and she KNOWS how to get her way. She has violent outbursts if she doesn't get her way so we try to avoid them at all costs! She is severely Autistic, she isn't really verbal, she signs everything that she needs. She is an awesome person, I love her so much. She can make me smile when I'm in the worst mood!
I have a younger brother, he reads my blog also so I better talk nice! {Haha, Love you Kyle}. He is super smart, he plays guitar {and he is super good}, he likes to make movies. He will go far in life, and will achieve anything he wants to if he tries hard enough. {But, remember kyle. You need to have a back up plan!} 
I love my siblings so much and I could not have been given better ones!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Day 2-My Crush

Saying I have a "crush" feels a little juvenile, but here goes anyways. I have more than one.
My husband is of course my number one {#1} crush! He is just so cute,gorgeous,amazing, and silly wrapped in one person! He gives me the butterflies still and he is totally Sexy in my opinion!
#2 Dr.Sheppard off of Grey's Anatomy. Oh my goodness is all I can say about him...
#3 Dr.Sloan Mmmm Mmmm good:)  & He is a plastic surgeon?!

   Sorry I am so late, I had a pretty awesome day hanging out with the hubby before he went to work. Then I headed over to my nieces house and played her and the rest of the family in some Horseopoly. She is obsessed with horses so she begged me to play with her, of course I whooped everyone! I ended up making the bank go bankrupt! Then I went on a date with my sis-in-law. It was catfish night at one of the local restaurants! I love that place, and its cheap!
   Well, off I go to spend more time with my silly husband. We are going to watch some more episodes of Weeds. Our newest addiction.

Friday, January 7, 2011

Day 1-Best Friends

In order to fill up my lonely nights better I am going to do this 30 day challenge. This will give y'all more insight to my life and it will keep me occupied for a few minutes. 
Day 1 — Your Best Friend(s)
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Day 1
I have 4 really close people that I can talk to whenever I need to, about whatever I need to. We are always there for each other no matter what. Through thick and thin.
Mr.Farmer-He is my husband, has been for one year and five months and x days. He is an OIF veteran and is heading out for Afghanistan in XX amount of days. I love him more than anything in this world, he is my rock. Without him I don't know where I would be or who I would be. He has helped me learn so much about myself and helped me become a better person. 

{Me and Nik}
Nik-Nik-I have known Nik since I was in the first grade I believe?! {hopefully I didn't just lie} We have had our trials but we always come out as better friends, it was hard when my husband was deployed because she didn't understand what I was going through and we grew apart. Now she lives @ Ft.Riley with her husband and they are waiting on their first deployment. I wish I talked to her more but she literally works herself to death. {60+ hours a week} No matter if we don't get to talk much I still love her, more than she will ever know, and we will always have Facebook!:)

{My husband,ME,Hays}
Hays-This girl has been here for me through some of the roughest times in my life. I have only known her for a few short years. She helped me during my first deployment, when her husband was deployed I was there for her. We just help each other out. She is non-judgmental, she listens very well. I love this girl. She is the girl I was talking about it one of my previous posts. She lives in WA so sometimes it feels like she is living on the moon. I can't wait till we are reunited. :)

This was taken on her camera so the image is bad. {Ne-Nay and Myself on our way to the Carrie Underwood concert} {I kind of look stupid, but this is honestly the only pic of us I have on my computer, sad huh?,the rest are on my wedding card}
Ne-Nay-Ne-Nay is her name now, one niece called her that and now everyone else does too! She is my awesome SIL. I have gotten so much closer to her than I thought I ever would! She is just plain country. She likes her 4X4 trucks, her deer meat, and her MT.Dew! She is such a goof ball, we will just laugh and laugh when we are together. I consider us sisters, not just SIL. 

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Your Help Is Needed

Dearest Blogger Buddies,
                                        I really really need your help! As y'all know I am from the great state of OK, we eating nothing but unhealthy fried food. I am in desperate need of some help picking out a few healthy meals. Now just so y'all know, I am NO Betty Crocker. They need to be simple enough for my little brain to comprehend! I am making a grocery list for tomorrow and I am hoping to have a few meals picked out to try.
If anyone of you have any ideas please let me know!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Until They Return Home Safely

Warning:This post is boring, and probably not written well. I ramble on and on. Don't blame me for wasting 5 minutes of your life if you read it. Although,I will be thankful if you do read it and actually make it through the entire thing.

  Today is a sad day, I have been thinking a lot about the deployment and how I am going to manage while I go through this. When my best friend {Hay's} husband was deployed to Afghanistan we became SO much closer. We hung out, had sleep overs, talked on the phone. I was there for her. They were stationed at Ft.Lewis,WA when he returned home. Now we are over 1,000 miles away, some days it feels more like 78371281 billion miles away. She is busy with her new life of being an army wife, she is taking care of their three babies {when I say babies, I really mean it, one is 3 the other is 1 1/2 years old, the other is only a few months old}. We rarely get to talk because we are so busy with our lives. When she does get the chance to call it is normally to late over here. I am so scared of going through this deployment alone {literally alone}. When my husband leaves I will have no one. I miss her so much and I just wish that I still had her here, cause I am going to need her more than anything pretty soon. I am thankful to be familiar with this town, I went to high school here so I know people. I hate this town with a passion though, the only reason we haven't moved yet is because of my schooling.

   In fact, back in 2009 we ALMOST went active duty. My husband couldn't find a job or keep one. The economy was so bad in OK that everyone was laying off and NOT HIRING. This was so frustrating, I was in school full-time and working full time. No one would hire my husband, they say that jobs hire vets first, well its a freaking lie. Anyways, back to the active duty story, my husband went in and talked to a recruiter got all of his paperwork straightened out to transfer from the guard to active. He went to meps,and BAM we had our move date, and we were headed out for Ft.Bliss,TX. Our move date was in January 2010. I put my two weeks notice in, and we were ready to move. Well, he was scheduled to go back to MEPS a week before we were supposed to move in order to swear in and get his physical. Well low and behold when he went to MEPS the second time he was 22 pounds overweight {I guess thats what unemployment, post deployment will to do a person}. They changed our move date to May! 4 freaking months later! They wouldn't let him swear in that day, so he started his diet. He had at least 22 pounds to lose in four months. Easy right? I had put my two weeks notice in already as I mentioned above, my job found and hired a replacement the same day he went to meps and discovered he was over weight. So yes, we were BOTH out of jobs. I had given my job up and my boss wasn't going to work with me, she felt no sympathy about our position. Great boss, right? So there we are jobless and the army won't take us.Thank GOD I was in CNA classes at the time. So that is how I started working as a CNA. We were really ready to get on with our lives and just go active, move and serve our country full time. Then came the day when I got my nursing school acceptance letter. I couldn't do it, I couldn't up and move when I had a chance to go to nursing school. So I made a hard decision, I told my husband I couldn't go with him, so if he went through with it we would just make a long distance relationship work while I was in school. He wasn't having it so he decided not to go active {thank God they didn't let him swear in, in January}. Things started looking up then, he found a good job finally, I was about to be finished with all my basics and start nursing school. I went down to part-time and focused more on school.

   We thought we were almost through with the National Guard,  his last drill would be December 2010. Well we got a call in July asking if he would like to volunteer to go to Afghanistan in 2011. {What,you have got to be kidding?} He called me, and said he really wanted to of course me being the good wife, I couldn't put up a fight. Besides it makes me proud to have a husband that actually wants to go and will volunteer to go. So here we are 2011, and getting ready for the big deployment. I have my stack of paperwork {life insurance, power of attorney, military clause} ready to go, and now I am lost just trying to figure out what I am going to do. We are now in the double digit days till he leaves, not very long and I am going to be a single army wife waiting alongside with many others wives for her soldier to return home safely.

Wow, I really did ramble on this post. I am sorry if you made it all the way through this. I guess this post is just my life in review for the past year. The trials we have went through on this journey we call life.